Lyrical Lavender Life

From the depths of my soul Come hunger for more love And thirst for more healing. For so long I have ached From a loneliness wound Though loving friends And abundant family surround. In the light of day In the black of night I work on dealing. For so long this wound Held prisoner my focus Though the ache not acute Nothing else could be found. Feared alone in my pain Life seemed to be my sentence For crimes I'd forgotten or never done. This drink of depression Though not my own vice Was the weapon Rage used to bring innocense down. As I've grown quite aware, A tension leaves the air When I realize I'm not alone anymore. For the wrath was brought down Making no waves for himself Because help made no sound. So I gather my memories up for now. As loss takes it's toll Away all the years go When I vow to keep only the good. These memories somehow Seem to hold more value now Than they did when they were new This great pretender leaves without a bow. I may have his blood And h

Passing through space All voices are silent No see-ers can see tomorrow Echoes of moments past Lurk looking for meaning Only time will tell happy from sorrow As the new day approaches The dawn of change shows From the passion of revolution No one can borrow With a high flying conscience And a low spilling pride The birth of different Could happen tomorrow.

As I lay here alone in the dark I'm reminded of how we've come so far Talking, expressing, Refraining from repressing. I wonder how far Does love stretch or expand, I'd gladly cross oceans Just to hold your hand. As time is a theme I cannot grasp and hold, I know that as it passes Our story unfolds. Though without knowing Minutes or hours or days, I fight the swift current To follow your way. And if I am swept away In the search for my quest, I hope you remember that By knowing you I have been blessed.

Yay! Video! This is so great! I figured out an easy way to do video so I should be able to post one this weekend. Yay! Check back soon.

Thinking about life as it's lived day by day and not about the entire journey is very difficult for me. I'm a planner, as much as I try to fight it, and I do some preparations for day to day. But I am generally a "big picture" kind of person, but I'm trying to focus on taking "One Step at a Time" (thank you, Jordin Sparks) and remember that's "It's all about the climb". (Ok, so even a 32 year old can find inspiration in the songs of Hannah Montana / Miley Cyrus and Jordin Sparks). I wrote this to help me remember to appreciate each step. Looking up at the mountain before me I take a deep breath, drawing my foot up. Looking for a hold to grasp tightly, My sole searches for a place to stand. My soul searches for a place to rest. Seeking desperately that next stronghold place I find it and propel myself off, up to and grab. While it seemed diliberate, I felt the rush of a risk taken And achievement earned. With little to gain at one time

Real life has no casting calls, but there is no shortage of characters. - klh