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Loss of him

From the depths of my soul Come hunger for more love And thirst for more healing. For so long I have ached From a loneliness wound Though loving friends And abundant family surround. In the light of day In the black of night I work on dealing. For so long this wound Held prisoner my focus Though the ache not acute Nothing else could be found. Feared alone in my pain Life seemed to be my sentence For crimes I'd forgotten or never done. This drink of depression Though not my own vice Was the weapon Rage used to bring innocense down. As I've grown quite aware, A tension leaves the air When I realize I'm not alone anymore. For the wrath was brought down Making no waves for himself Because help made no sound. So I gather my memories up for now. As loss takes it's toll Away all the years go When I vow to keep only the good. These memories somehow Seem to hold more value now Than they did when they were new This great pretender leaves without a bow. I may have his blood And h

Time of Different

Passing through space All voices are silent No see-ers can see tomorrow Echoes of moments past Lurk looking for meaning Only time will tell happy from sorrow As the new day approaches The dawn of change shows From the passion of revolution No one can borrow With a high flying conscience And a low spilling pride The birth of different Could happen tomorrow.

Time with you

As I lay here alone in the dark I'm reminded of how we've come so far Talking, expressing, Refraining from repressing. I wonder how far Does love stretch or expand, I'd gladly cross oceans Just to hold your hand. As time is a theme I cannot grasp and hold, I know that as it passes Our story unfolds. Though without knowing Minutes or hours or days, I fight the swift current To follow your way. And if I am swept away In the search for my quest, I hope you remember that By knowing you I have been blessed.
Yay! Video! This is so great! I figured out an easy way to do video so I should be able to post one this weekend. Yay! Check back soon.

Learning to Climb- Step 1

Thinking about life as it's lived day by day and not about the entire journey is very difficult for me. I'm a planner, as much as I try to fight it, and I do some preparations for day to day. But I am generally a "big picture" kind of person, but I'm trying to focus on taking "One Step at a Time" (thank you, Jordin Sparks) and remember that's "It's all about the climb". (Ok, so even a 32 year old can find inspiration in the songs of Hannah Montana / Miley Cyrus and Jordin Sparks). I wrote this to help me remember to appreciate each step. Looking up at the mountain before me I take a deep breath, drawing my foot up. Looking for a hold to grasp tightly, My sole searches for a place to stand. My soul searches for a place to rest. Seeking desperately that next stronghold place I find it and propel myself off, up to and grab. While it seemed diliberate, I felt the rush of a risk taken And achievement earned. With little to gain at one time

Quote of the day

Real life has no casting calls, but there is no shortage of characters. - klh
Coming to you live from my iPhone. Gosh I love that phone. I'll be working on my blog and expect to make my first post in a long time by Saturday. This is a test. This is soooo cool. Thanks for reading. Come back soon!

Learning to Bend, without breaking!

With the economy causing so much stress for everyone right now, it's hard to relax and achieve that easy-going, go-with-the-flow attitude and optimistic mood that is the nature of a lot of people when things are going well. It's common for people to have bend a little bit to deal with stress, but it's not fair for so many people to come so close to the edge of breaking before their stress can be relieved. Sometimes when bad things happen to good people, we wonder why, we think it's not fair and we question the system. Sometimes it seems that the system works for no one but the system itself. Sometimes feeling like we have given and given and given so much without taking back our fair share puts a huge strain on our ability to trust that the give and take of life that creates balance is still there and it leaves us questioning whether it is still a concept that applies to all. Now, please let me make note: I can't complain... I have a job, a place to sleep, a car t

New Beginnings

The last six months have seen many changes in my life. Now, I want a new look, a new feel, and a new presence on the blog-front. I will be making changes to this blog this week and by Tuesday hope to make a new post that will begin the commitment of weekly posts to this blog (because daily seems too daunting a challenge for me presently). If you have been checking in for a while and have been disappointed at the lack of posts, I hope you will be excited for the upcoming changes and will return to read here weekly. Thanks for hanging in there with me. Happy Martin Luther King, Jr. Day! Until Tuesday...... Hope. Peace. Change. Don't forget to watch history in the making on Inauguration Day- Jan. 20, 2009.