Learning to Bend, without breaking!

With the economy causing so much stress for everyone right now, it's hard to relax and achieve that easy-going, go-with-the-flow attitude and optimistic mood that is the nature of a lot of people when things are going well. It's common for people to have bend a little bit to deal with stress, but it's not fair for so many people to come so close to the edge of breaking before their stress can be relieved.
Sometimes when bad things happen to good people, we wonder why, we think it's not fair and we question the system. Sometimes it seems that the system works for no one but the system itself.
Sometimes feeling like we have given and given and given so much without taking back our fair share puts a huge strain on our ability to trust that the give and take of life that creates balance is still there and it leaves us questioning whether it is still a concept that applies to all.

Now, please let me make note: I can't complain... I have a job, a place to sleep, a car to drive, and some money in my pocket. I am very thankful for what I have and where I am, but I too am hoping for better in the future.

Having said all that: I am finding myself in the perpetual state of planning for better- when it doesn't seem to be up to me as to when that "better" might begin. I don't know what timeline my "better" is following, and as of yet, I don't even really know how to locate where my "better" might be found. I'm wondering if anyone else is feeling this way right now?

I realize this may not make sense to everyone, but that's ok. I just felt the need to put it out there and if you have felt or are feeling something similar to these, please leave me a comment.
Perhaps group counseling is in my near future.... any thoughts?

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MissPrime said…
:) I like the new look ! I'm looking forward to reading more of your blogs to come!

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... there's some really interesting stuff to read in the archives. :)
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